State of the Life Address

Wow.  I just realized I haven't posted anything for a month and a twelfth of the new year is practically history.  Time flies when you're having fun.

So much is going on....possible job changes, possible church changes.....everything is "possible"...meaning there is nothing definite going on around here.  I'm wasting my life away waiting for and wondering about the next thing around the corner in my circumstances. There is the very real possibility that the place of my employment may be sold at anytime.  That means I could find myself unemployed soon.  My continued inquiries into other possible jobs aren't resulting in anything promising.

I continue to attend two churches (one on Sunday mornings, the other on Sunday afternoons).  I do love the liturgy and music of the Anglican church, but sometimes I wonder if they (Anglicans) have a clue to what's going on.  The more I investigate all things Anglican, the more confused I am.  There is much diversity in the Anglican church, from evangelicals to Anglo-Catholics.  At least the Presbyterians seem to have their theology nailed down.  Now there are plenty of good Reformed folks in the Anglican church, but I perceive there are also many with wrong doctrine and others who don't know what they believe.  But, I suppose you can find all kinds in any church.

Time is running out.  I am 58 years old and I need to put some roots down somewhere.  At this rate, I will die and not have a church family to bury me.  I don't want one of those generic "funeral home" funerals.  Actually I do have a church family, but I continue to feel the tugging at my sleeve to move on to other places, other experiences.

I know, I know....I need to trust God and live each day serving Him, but I guess my mental block comes with wanting to be sure I am where I am supposed to be NOW.  I am learning that the older I get, it doesn't get easier.  If anyone actually reads this, I ask for your prayers.

To update more specifically as I refer back to my post of December 26, 2011.....I had lunch with my pastor earlier this month and shared my concerns with him.  He encouraged me to pursue other ministry possibilities in our church and in the community.  At this time I am hoping to visit the "other Anglican church", All Souls, in a few weeks so I can make a more "intelligent" decision concerning the Anglican church and my future.