I will use the word "feel" instead of "believe" in what I am about to say because I am not sure whether or not I am going off on some kind of tangent or this is all legitimate. 

 I feel I am on a collision course with a monumental decision between making money and peace of mind....remaining in the rat race to be able to pay the bills or to strike out "in faith" to explore other avenues God may have waiting for me.  And there is the rub.  Am I looking for an excuse to run from it all and avoid some unfamiliar pressure and stress, or is it time to close this chapter of my life and move on to the next one?  

I am Clueless in Carolina.